Tuesday 30 June 2015

Hi, you've reached Sarah......

"Hi, you've reached Sarah. Sorry I can't take your call at the moment, but if you leave your name, number and a brief message, I will get back to you as soon as I can."

God, you don't know how many times I've wanted to say that today. Life would be a breeze with a message bank option on day to day stuff. 

You see, it's a hard day for some reason today. I'm trying to avoid battles with Miss 3, without making her a spoiled brat. I have picked my battles based on social situations, and even though they were long, and hard fought, I won. In the end that is. Even after a heart stopping moment where I couldn't find her in PillowTalk because she ran off. Again. Despite mummy telling her that it was scary for her when she ran off. So she giggled and ran off for the umpteenth time.

I've washed, run down to rescue it from the impending shower of rain. I've made the pikelets for daycare (pink this week), I've made DH and Miss3 their banana choc chip muffins for work and daycare. 

I'm tired, I'm grumpy, I'm not feeling 100%, and I am struggling. 

I find it hard to admit that sometimes, because when I do, people don't always understand. They don't understand what I mean, they don't understand why, they don't understand I don't want to be engaged in conversation. 

Sometimes, it makes me feel like I've failed. But I know in myself that I haven't. I am successful in my job, I'm doing a project that is extremely rewarding and challenging that I LOVE being a part of, I have an awesome husband, and a stubborn, strong-willed, independent, intelligent young daughter. When she sings the North Melbourne Club Song to me, I KNOW I've done something right. So when she wakes up from her nap, I'm going to give her a great, big cuddle and ask her to sing "Norse Melbourne" for me. 

This will be after I have had my me time, checked the other IBOT posts and I've eaten that cheesy pizza baking in my oven that has my name written all over it.

Obviously, I'm linking up with Essentially Jess for the wonderful IBOT. Happy Tuesday.

2 comments:

  1. I get days/moments like this too. I think we need to have a vent sometimes, to let people know how hard it is. It sucks that they don't get it, but as long as you do that's all that matters. Your three year old sounds just as difficult as mine!

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  2. Some days it's so hard. I had one of those yesterday, and I felt like I was failing on all levels.
    I hope that tomorrow is better for you. I think pizza solves lots of problems. :)

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